Depression / Anxiety / Suicide is not a fucking label to be cool with.

Hey People,

Im not sure if im really upset or angry to say something about this, but i cant say nothing so …

I was scrolling through tumblr and Instagram the last few day and i saw profiles and posts, i really thought they must be “joking” once said

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i mean if this is a true thing im really sorry fo her that her life must be so hard and she battle so many fights but, why the heck is she posting this in her Profile! Its nothing seriously NOTHING to be proud of, i see it more often in the past month people try to get attention for it ? i dont know …

To make this clear to try to commit suicide or even the thought about it, its nothing to be proud of and defently nothing to try to get atteontion for it, its a really serious situation for people because they can die, its something that need to to get handle serious eben with a therapist or anything else and i feel ashamed and sad for thoose who are really dealing with these thought cause i know how they feel/felt and now because people might think to make “fun” about this, no one really seems to take this serious anymore, people need to stop to take a Suicide as a Label to be “cool” or getting atteintion, this is the wrong way!

Its the same thing with depression, some people dont seem to know what depression really is … its a mental illness and it always will be just for those who dont know

Depression is a state of low mood and aversion to activity that can affect a person’s thoughts, behavior, feelings and sense of well-being.[1] Depressed people can feel sad, anxious, empty, hopeless, helpless, worthless, guilty, irritable or restless. They may lose interest in activities that were once pleasurable, experience loss of appetite or overeating, have problems concentrating, remembering details or making decisions, and may contemplate, attempt or commit suicide. Insomnia, excessive sleeping, fatigue, aches, pains, digestive problems or reduced energy may also be present.[2]

Depression is a feature of some psychiatric syndromes such as major depressive disorder but it may also be a normal reaction to certain life events, a symptom of some bodily ailments or a side effect of some drugs and medical treatments.

Its a serious illness and need to care like a … and just because some of you just been having a bad day or might a bad weeks doesnt mean you are depressed. Its hard to try to live a life with depression, some days just just stare at a wall or you just lay in bed and dont even have the motivation to even leave the bed or just to do anything, to are about to loose your friends in life beacuse they dont understand why you cancel all the plans or why you dont even write back so please dont Label yourself with a Mental illness when you dont have them.

I dont wanna point a finger to anyone but it makes me from time to time really angry because i know how it is and i have friends with a mental illness and it needs to be treat like a mentall illness. Even the tv shows not all but there are a few who makes fun about depressed people. Its nothing funny about this.

Well at least the Anxiety …. its not just like you are scared of doing something what you might dont like its more … i cant even talk to stranger without getting them or i cant call my Boss to ask something. Theres diffrent parts of Anxiety

Anxiety is an unpleasant state of inner turmoil, often accompanied by nervous behavior, such as pacing back and forth, somatic complaints and rumination.[2] It is the subjectively unpleasant feelings of dread over anticipated events, such as the feeling of imminent death.[3] Anxiety is not the same as fear, which is a response to a real or perceived immediate threat;[4] whereas anxiety is the expectation of future threat.[4] Anxiety is a feeling of fear, worry, and uneasiness, usually generalized and unfocused as an overreaction to a situation that is only subjectively seen as menacing.[5] It is often accompanied by muscular tension,[4] restlessness, fatigue, and problems in concentration. Anxiety can be appropriate, but when it is too much and continues too long, the individual may suffer from an anxiety disorder.[4]

People facing anxiety may withdraw from situations which have provoked anxiety in the past.[6] There are different types of anxiety. Existential anxiety can occur when a person faces angst, an existential crisis, or nihilistic feelings. People can also face test anxiety, mathematical anxiety, stage fright or somatic anxiety. Another type of anxiety, stranger anxiety and social anxiety are caused when people are apprehensive around strangers or other people in general. Anxiety can be either a short term ‘state’ or a long term “trait”. Anxiety disorders are a group of mental disorders characterized by feelings of anxiety and fear,[7] where anxiety is a worry about future events. Anxiety disorders are partly genetic but may also be due to drug use including alcohol and caffeine, as well as withdrawal from certain drugs. They often occur with other mental disorders, particularly major depressive disorder, bipolar disorder, certain personality disorders, and eating disorders. Common treatment options include lifestyle changes, therapy, and medications.

As you see all these illness are some who need to be treated like a serious illness and nothing to make fun about or label themself. Please if you know someone dont look away or make jokes about it, they might dont ask for help but they really need some, just be there for them and care, you dont know how much this really mean to them and might how much it helps.

x Sarah



222 Days Clean

Hey People,

I cant really tell you why im here right now and writing this down … i just thought i just should check my WordPress blog and i saw theres still people who reading some of my old Blogpost and i thought you might should “update” it with a new post … i tried it once a few month ago but it wasnt the right time …

Well as some of my readers know i had a really bad time in the past with suicide thougths and other stuff  … its been a while since i updated cause i really needed to figure out in which way my life shpuld turn cause i know it cant end here …. people helped my through this time and im thankfull for this even when im not close to some of them anymore … Nevermind

Well its been a while now and it changed alot of things.

I start working in a complete new place with people who i love to work with i dont get panic attacks anymore when im on my way at work, i meet so many kind people there and im finally happy to find a new Job like that … yeah sometimes i hate it to work but who doesnt ;).

What else changed … well i start and still try to see things not to bad as i did in the past, sure theres always days where i fall back into my old mood but i have people around me or on the internet who cheer me up and to stop me to do bad things and im so happy that i have them in my life now… i never thought that my life really changed that much in the last 2 years. Mostly it changed cause i meet people like them. To look back now, to see old post .. i dont know i get a really weird feeling about it.

If someone told me that i change that much in 2 years i wouldnt believed him to be honest, i really start to kind of enjoy life, i love to laugh abput things, i opened myself infront of people about everything and it feelt good, i just need to get up always when i fall, i just need to remind myself theres people who care and always will.

Theres so much negativity in the world its so sad to see people killing themself, getting depressed or giving up … i know trust me i know how fucking hard life can be and how unfair, but see ive made it through this, its a hard battle against mostly with yourself, but you will be proud about the point tha you´ve made it and you getting stronger day by day and theres people who love you …

and its never lame or weak to search for help never forget sometimes we cant win the battle alone so we nee to get help and thoose people will help you to love yourself because your life is precious, all of your life is it.

Im clean now for 222 Days its may not much i know but for me its enough, im proud that ive made it so far and i will made it to a whole year …

Dont give up if you having a fight just message me im here ❤

dont forget your life is precious

x Sarah