Words do hurt

Hey people,

Im Sorry for the long break with not posting anything but i couldnt find the right words to post something, to find the right words that would gave a sense i felt myself so empty in the past weeks, i cant even descibe what happend with me, but on it happend something that i need to talk about it here its unbelievable what happend and how rude people can be and how much they can hurt  one person with just a few words.

i was at the weekend at a concert and was really looking forward to it, i met infron of the hall a few girls they were all so sweet and we had at the end such ann amazing time together and we are still in contact, one of them is a Beauty blogger and post a sweet picture of us on her page cause we had a awesome night but these comments under it i read it and read it over and over again ….

Look at the fat girl right next to you , this fat girl wanna look like you athey maked fun about me laughin about me

just about the fact i dont have a size zero , im not that beautiful as others yeah i dont look like the perfect person im not that beautiful but all this means im not that worth it to have a amazing night, to have fun all night long …. and people need to destroy it with words like this ?

I think these people dont know what they do when they write words down like this, how words can ruin a life from a person how easy people can fall into a depression, start cutting and commitet suicede people dont know nothing about this, all what they know is

Hey i bullied a  girl im now cool enough, yeah im so good now, im so strong …

I think sometimes these people have also problems and they dont find the right way to let it out and start bullyinf others to make feel themself better or i just want to help myself i dont know.

All what i know is i start crying after reading this it hurts so much to read stuff but im a person who read it over and over again to hurt myself always a bit more at the one site i just feel something but its not a good feeling i wrote something down on twitter and my friends react to this they wrote stuff under that picture that all this what the wrote is not okay, and what this girl think when she write this … there was also a few other user who wrote how disgusting this girl is to write stuff like this …

But it was so surreal to read i just saw all this negative stuff to bad words the hate against me  … I know how it felts to get bullied but i thought t finally stopped but i was wrong ….

I thankfull for having this girls in my life they accept me for who i am, and how i look they are there for me and im thankfull for my sisters i really love them.

But  ….

Theres these thought i know i have people who care about me who love me and all this but its so hard to going trough life with people like this in the world i know they are everywhere but why cant these people let us alone and let us live our own life.

After that after leaving my computer i was laying in my bed and the tears was back i cryed a lot in this night and was alone with myself there was a lot of thought in my head.. suicide thougth.. i just cant stop to think about thinks like this , the life is such a bitch and theres poeple who disgusted me like hell

words was running through my mind but i dont want to annoy someone to talk with me cause they all sleep and i dont want to wake anyone of them up just about the fact my mind is fucking around. Im Not proud about it what ive done this night im not really proud but i could find anything to stop all this im still here but i dont know all this kicks me all the time back into a part where i dont wanna be, where im not that strong where im weak like idk …

Is it to much that i just wanna live my life without getting bullied about what im doing, i just want to be love for who i am is this to much ?

I just want to live a happy life … without any doubts and smiling all day ….

Heres the pictures where everyone start talking against and laughing about me  im sorry for not being perfect and for my face ..

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It gave words they helping you and it gave words they hurt you !

Hello People,

Im writing here now about something what i see already everyday better said i hear it everyday and also see it on the Tv or radio. Its kinda shocking what happend with the live of teenagers and about what they are saying. Im now 24 so im over the Teenager time but when i was in the Teenager age (10 – 16 ) i dindt said words like this.

Im Talking about words like ( Cunts, Bitch, Slut, Ugly Bitch and more of this ) i cant really belive what i already heard from these young people seriously they are already growing up, i think they dont really knew about what happend with these people who they call these words. They just start saying these just to be cool and all this but honestly i know how it feels to get called these words and i thin ksome of you readers too and how much these words can hurt you.

–  I Wish i could give you my pain, just for one moment, Not to hurt you but rather soyou can finally understand how much you hurt me –

It actually doesnt care how old you are, just the fact you saying words like that, its not right ! YOu dont know what can happend when someone get calles these some of them start falling in a eating disease or start cutting or see any reason to live again and the lat thing the do is the suicide.

Some people should think about this what they saying cause they can kill people just with words, its a slowly way to get killed cause when one started to say things ike that the other start it too just to be with you cool.

– You are not cool with saying these words –

To get called these words leaves scars, sometimes not some you can see but they are they and they never leave this person again, trust me i know about what im writing here, for me its always a little looking back when i start thinking about a few things and i remember myself at everysingle word ive get called and from who, this never gonna leave a person.

– So better start thinking first before you start saying anything –

But theres also Words that can help you in bad times or healing your emotional scars, these words should better said more oftern like ( beautiful, you are worth it to get loved, pretty, smile more, love you , care about you, miss you ). its gave so many words who you already can help people with. But some choose more the way to hurt people.

When we all would pull at one rope and stop saying words like this, for some people the live would be a lot easier. you can try this out say everyday one person thats this one is beautiful and ou must mean this, trust me just these words can help more as money always can cause

– money cant buy you happyness –

You will see and when this person being much postiv as normals you also start smiling the whole day cause you brought a person to smile and this is something wonderfull in a life. We all need so much more postivity on the live of 2012/2013.

It gave enough hate in the world, we dont need it around of us and our love ones and friends, no one need hate or deserve to get some hate, hate can ruins live of so many people.

xx Sarah

 

Can you Respect yourself with how do you Look and can See in the mirror and say Im beautiful ?

Hello Readers,

I thought a couple times about this to write a blog about this problem which almost every girl has ! Its really a big problem in the life of a teenager and now also in the young life of little girls or growing up womans.

It gave not a lot of girls who cant respect how they looks like, when they see in the mirror they see problems they someday not really excist i mean, to fat, ugly, the nose, the breast, her belly, her but and some intire parts of their bodys.

Well im under these people who are “fat” in real and for me its really hard to look in the mirror and think are oyu really pretty, i must say not really people say to me that im pretty and this actuall proofs me that im not. For me its really hard to write about this but i wanna show some other gilrs they are not alone in this world !

When i look in the mirror i just see myself abd what happen with me in the last 6 years and its really horrible, this shows what can happen when you life is fucked up and your friends doesnt care about you and you start to eat just to feel happy.

I probertly couldnt believe when someone say to me you are pretty or something else cause its nor the truth

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But what is really hard in the socetiy of 2012 the Skinny girls wanna wear the magic size sero, its the skinny size of all, i mean i must say its not even pretty to look like a skelet with a little bit skin thats it. Just because the celebritys wear this size zero all teenager wanna wear this too. I mean dont be someone who you dont wanna be. And dont see some problems in the mirror they doesnt excist.

I saw it a couple times by my friends they are all almost all healty skinny but when they look in the mirror with them maybe 56 -64kg they start to say right next to me “im fat” look at my legs and my belly and i just think WTF is going on i wish i had your body …..

I can understand when people like me say im fat and neet to do something or girls have really issue with their body really bad one then its okay but when someone just say this, because they doesnt look like the Top Models !! Really no guy in this world want to cuddle with a girl where you see al bones and everything !!

To have a little bit more on the ribs is completly okay, a lot of boys love when girls are not that skinny like the Top Models.

And for those like me … We must do something cause its not that healty to be like that, i know its really hard and will be hard, but we must do it, when we finally lost some kg we can be proud of ourself :). I already start my own programm and lost -4kg so head up. Togther we reach our goals.

xxx Sarah

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