When Bands call it quit/Break up. 


Most of you Know what i mean, you have a Favorit Band or One you really like. You Love to listen to their Music and you Support them as much as you can and Then One Day were you thought this Could Never Happen … They Call it quit … Out of nowhere.

It’s like your Heart would Shatter in Million Pieces, you Start crying and Cant stop and all what you can think of is Why? Why Does this Happen Right now?

Theres many ways to Fall in Love with a Band

– to Fall in Love with a Member

– or to Fall in Love with the lyrics

Mostly People can Identify their life with the lyrics of a certain Band, it’s like they would Know whats Going on, or understands you.

Music makes Everything less painfull.

Thats Why alot of People get attached to Bands Cause they Know How their feel, or throught what they been. Bands/Music has a Huge inpact of Most of the Poeple Life’s.

You keep Supporting that Band Cause they help you to keep Going and the thought that this Band Could stop to excist ist Something that no One really think about, and exactly thats Why Are Bands Break ups Always so hard for us to Understand or Handle.

You grab their Music when you feel sad or Alone and they Are Always there Even when Not in Person and Then when they Call it quit you don’t know How to Handle this.

Whos gonna Be there now when you Need someone ? When you listen now to their Music it’s Not the Same you Always Look Back at the “good” times and feel sad because it’s over.

Bands keep Most of the Teens Alive so hard it may Sounds.

Some Poeple Cant Handle These Feelings and lost the Control about themself, some just cry a Few times and get over it, Some don’t Even Care.

But for me a Band Break up when it’s One of my Fave it’s Never easy.i Always feel sad and hurt when i Look Back, i Know How much Fun i had with them and i Know it’s Never the Same … Sometimes you Cant Even Say goodbye to that Band Cause you Cant Afford to Travel so far, or they might can Afford to get on tour for the Last Time.

But Even How hard this Time is we shouldnt forget to good times and the New Friends we all Found through that Band. WE keep them in Out Heart forever

X sarah


Post Concert Depression

Hey World,

I want to bring up something that im dealing with so often in the past 3 Years. Im talking about a Post Concer Depression, might some of you know what im talking about, but for thoose who not know heres some information and the feeling i get over and over again

For many people like me a Concert is not just a concert where we go to and have some time together, might dancing around and something, for me a Concert is always something to look forward to , to be happy about just something to keep me alive and dont let me getting insane in this whole World. A Concert is for me something magical that no one could ever gave me, this feeling i get when i wait in the line before the show 2,4 or maybe even 10 hours, yeah for some of you this sounds crazy or something but for me its something i wanna do to might have the chance to meet one of the people who helped and saved my life so many times.

To know i get closer to the time when i just can let fall my mask that i wear day by day to act like im happy and smiling, i just can be myself in this 2 Hours, i can spend my time with 1000 Strangers in one room but all i know is we have all something in common we are all there for this Band, something just because the same reason others are just there to spend an awesome time ans then go home and thats it.

Not for me, in this 2 Hours, i just can be me, i dont need to act like im happy cause in this 2 Hours i really am happy, i smile and i really mean it, its everytime a new experience on a concert its always diffrent but at the end it makes me always unbelievable happy. My Life isnt always the best and easy one, i try my best day by day i do things that i dont like at jobs,pretend if im allright day by day, we all do this somehow and all this stress we had this anger in us, it falls down from our shoulders within seconds of standing in the crowd, we look up to the Singer or the Band why we are there, when the first melody, the first line it gets us, everything is surreal, everything we see looks so bright so beautifull, we forget everything what was or even is and we are there where we belong to.

When the first lyrics starts you already know them you can sing everysingle line everysingle word, the melody goes through you body you heart is beating to the melody that got played, you start dancing like its one f the normals things, the people right next to oyu to the same, thousand of people enjoying something so special and wonderfull at the same time. You Jump up and down, theres not much room where you stand but it doesnt care, even if you fall someone picks you up and smileys at you, you´ve me surrounded by so many wonderfull people. You dont feel how the time flies how short actually 2 hours are …  Some Lyrics of some songs mean the most to you, words that saved you, words that helped you when no one was there. You start crying cause they sing about something how you feel, what you´ve been  going through or still dealing with. You look up to them, sing with them everysingle word and crying cause theres someone who understands how you feel and he is always there for you.

The moment when the Show is over, the Bands leaves the stage, you cant really realise what happend, how can be 2 hours so short, its all surreal and you are just there and dont know what to do, to think or you dont even know wheres the exit, you waited for this moment might weeks or Month sometimes also years for this special moment and then its over.

You leave the Hall where there performed, you might check the merch to grab something from their stuff and then you leave you might wait till they might comes out or you go home, filled with Happiness and sadness at the same time. You cant even describe really how you feel you have a smile on your face and tears in your eyes. All what you want is already going back to see this show again and again. You know tomorrow is the same old life back the time where you put your Mask on and pretend you are allright and everything is fine.

a Days or Days you feel sick and alone, you can start crying directly when you look back to the show, you get the good feeling back when you think about the whole show, but then you wake up and realise its over and you start crying like hell, you want to be happy, you want the show back your lifesaver on stage everything but you cant. This is a Post Concer Depression.

I dont know i cant even count how much i had a depression like that actually my whole life is a Post Concer Depression, cause there i can be who i am and dont need to pretend something diffrent.

You try to find in the Social Network people who feel the same like you, people who understands you, the feeling you have and how much you miss this Band this feeling, you try to look forward to, to the next show or planning to travel to another city to see them Live, i already did this i traveld through my whole country to see a Band live, for some it might sounds crazy but for me its the only thing that keeps me alive.
Together we are strong, a Fanbase should stay together cause we all feel the same, we go all through the same emotional rollercoaster, we find new people with diffrent storys and nobody should get judge by what hes been listen to. We all want to break out of Life jsut for 2 Hours we just want to feel again. Even when just for 2 Hours.

Thats my Story

If You want you can write me yours x





Hey World,

We all know how it feels it be alone, no ones there to talk to, or someone you can call or anything else. For people like us it can be a really dangerous situation, we are not save in situations likes this, we always try or even promise to stay strong but sometimes, our thoughts are louder that any promise we ever gave.

For us every dark situation, every bad thoughts are a non stop battle against ourself, we alwas try to win but sometimes we need to accept that we loose. We all have or might had a lot of battles against ourself or still batteling, its a never ending fight. In times like this some dont really know what they want for me personally i wish i could write a person that i need them in this time really bad ( might some of you feel the same ) but i cant, i was never a person who asked for help or anything.

Over the past month and years i become to an really god actor to play the perfect role, the perfekt smile happy face to show yeah of course everything is fine i put my mask on and played the game but at the inside i was dying everytime a little bit more.

Sometime people ask me if im ok or not, but even then i lie to them cause i dont want that they know about my real problems whats ive been battle against, or whats in my head and in my mind, i was 2 times at the point to give them all an end, 2 fucking time, sometimes i sit at a train station and think well one jump and its over .. just one step …

But then i remind myself abput something, theres something that helped always when i feel bad and alone and when no friend is there, its the music for me something really important, she is always with me and i know which song i need to choose, i know which band helps me with their lyrics, its like they understand me, what ive been going through or all what thinking about in this situation they are there for this moment and they say these words that i need, Bands like

– Simple Plan

– Linkin Park

– Good Charlotte

thats just the top theres some more and these are the band that i normal listen to in times like these when i just need someone.Musix and specially these Bands are my lifesaver, so many times they helped me, so many times they stopped me when i was start to cut again what no one of my friends knows ..

Theres always a  small line between giving up and stand up again to fight the battle from the beginning. I really Love my Friends but they have all so many problems and i dont want to bother them with mine too, the deserve so much more to be happy, to smile and to enjoy the life. My Friends are my everything if you hurt them you hurt me too. There are also my lifesaver they helped me in the past so often, theres no us without you and me. My Babes are my heart and my soul, i know that i fight all this battles for them that i need to be strong for them, we all need to be strong for everyone, when one person gives up, then we all fall, 2 girls saved for almost 1,5 years my life, but they wrote me they was there and im really thankfull for this i really am. Without them i wouldnt be here anymore.

Day by Day we fight, we have battles with others or with ourself, we get everytime a little bit stronger out of the fight yea we loose sometimes but we need to look forward to, do it for the people who loves you and who you love.

Dont forget Bands are always there and Listen


Im Proud of you, you are still here xx




Clean since 36 days

Suicide Soundcloud Message

Hey People,

For about a few weeks, i was at a down and start scrolling trough my Tumblr with the Search words for

Depressed, Suicide, Cut , Alone , Selfharm


and i found something that changed my view about the whole Suicide completly, i cant even describe in which way it changed but i thought well i should listen to this let see what this is.

The Soundcloud Mp3 is from a girl called ErikalynXo i dont know if she fight against self Harm or Suicide thought or what else but she upload something in Soundcloud called



I expected something about her Story, about the way how she planned might a Suicide or anything else so i start clicking on the play button and within 2 Seconds no words nothing this touched me really she start talking with the First words


” You sitting at your desk”


She start talking about it like it is you, in your own view, it goes 11 mins a bit more and all this changed my view about this i cant really describe how but this was really “impressing” its ight not the right word but i think it exlain it the best how i wanna describe it.

She start talking about is, like its your Story, your way to plan a suicide but she dont end when you re dead no she show you the way after you what is with the people who loves you that you didnt see, the people around you and all this, i honestly got goosebumbs and start crying while listen to this here.

At one site i was fascinated about this Soundcloud but otherwise it scares me to hell, how good she knows “me” in that way, and my way what i planned but early enough stopped and all this just a stranger a girl can change so many minds from so many diffrent people around the world …

i start a few time to write a blog about this but didnt really know how to start and now i just decided to write what i think and when you have these thoughts in you in your mind or just sometimes for about a few minutes please Listen to this here its kinds “wonderfull” How 1 Girl can change from so many people her own mind.

Still when you have problems with Self-Harm ot anything that destroys Yourself please take these 11 mins and close your eyes might use your headphone to hear it clearly and Listen to this its something special in his own way.

Heres the Link to it




It nothing big but might it can help you to see your own life now diffrent then

before, you see things diffrent, your thoughts about it are maybe diffrent ..

Let me know what do you think about this Soundcloud Message.

x Sarah


Music / Concerts my escape of Life

Hey It seems that a few blogs going online today ..

Well for me as might some of you dont know is a very important part of my life, she is there when i need it i dont need to explain why i need it or when she is always there. I can put my earphone in my ear choose a song and it helps me through a situation that im going through or need to get through.

Sometimes i listen to a few songs when i write a blog or when i search for some answears and dont know how to find them, for me the music has something special something magical.

It makes it within seconds even better as it already is.

Im glad that i have sometimes the chance to go on concerts and see bands playing and piut my mind on mute and just listen to the songs there were playing, it feels like  that im home there were i love to be and there were i should be.For me its not even important to meet people who play this music for me its important to see people there who i know and share this magical moment with them.

In my friendzone theres a lot of peoplewho share the same love as i do to the music we all have a kind relationship with the music, she is for all of us always there and dont bring us down she can help us in so many ways and music can bring people together and closer to each other, help to meet new people and share things.

Outstanding people dont might understand people like me, i listen more than 5 hours a day to music and couldnt probertly survive without them, she is and always will be a very important part in my life and in my heart, do you feel the same ?

I Love the meet new people who share the same love to the music i think people dont need to share the same love for bands when you  both love the music i think then its already enough might you gonna love the others bands to but you dont need to cause we are all diffrent and this is something good.

When you lay down at night in your bed or in the grass close your eyes and push play on your Favorit song what do you feel ?

I feel free at this time, all problems are gone at this time ..

What is music for you? What does she mean you ? Could you survive without her ?


Music the escape of life.

Music for might for some of you just something you listen to everyday without any reason you just need something to hear.

And for others like me, the best therapie you could ever get, the best way to get with your mind out of all the hate, problems of life. The Music is something that can give you so many things at the same time ..

.. Hope, Love, Trust, Understanding, Help ..

For me is the music like Air or every pulse or heartbeat, i couldnt live without her i listen to music since i were in the teenager age might a bit earlier but for me the music was always a big part an important part of my life, they helped me so often out of all drama in my life i put my earphone in my ear, click play and the world was on mute. The Music is a wonderfull gift of every artist, everyone has his own special Band or just a Song that gave yourself the feeling that someone understood you, try to help you ot is might just there at the moment.

When you feel alone you know the music is always there for you when others leave you, the music gave you something that others might never can. Theres a lot of different music types in the world tons of ..

.. Pop, Rock ,Rap, Techno, Metal, Alternitive, Hardcore Metal and some more  …

Everyone has his own music type that he love and adore and songs by artist that you love and being a fan of, thoose Songs speak words from your own soul, they tell you your life tr to help you, and being there for you, people who never had this feeling cant understand this, how a song could help a person, help more as a human ever can ..

The Music is a wonderfull gift and they always will, nothing helps specially me more as the music honestly, i have it one my phone, at work and everywhere, shes always there and for that im thankfull when my people around me have sometimes not the time for me i know i can put my earphone in my ear and know soon its getting a bit better with some special songs i love and know that they help me.

The Music is one of the most Important parts of my life and she always will …

What means music to you ? 

xx Sarah



Concerts .. the feeling …. there where you belong to …


Hey peeps,


What do you think about concerts and the feeling to stand with 1000 of people in one room, to share the love for a special band, party like it would gave no tomorrow just live every single sec ? How is it for you to go to shows from your favorit Band or Solo Artist.

When i talk with a few of my friends they cant understand why im so often at some concerts and why i love it so much. Just the feeling to wait infront of the Hall and to know soon you gonna see you band back on stage to hear their music live, this one of the best feelings i know and love. The Hours to wait in rain, when its cold or sunny it diesnt care, its an awesome feeling.

Then when the doors are open and the people can go into the hall, i cant reallydescribe this feeling, m heart start beating faster and faster, when im in in the haal and see the stage, the line up and all this, i feel like i would be home and enjoy every single sec.  To be in the front row is one of the best feelings every ou have the chance to get the hand of your idol, you see everyone of the band.

Then  when the Support Band come on stage the feeling getting bigger and bigger you listen to the music of the support band but my mind is always to that bannd why im actually there, and to know that i gonna see them in less than 1 hour makes me at that moment so unbelivable happy, for me the concerts are an important part of my live obviously the music is also an very important part for me .

When the Support Band leaves the stage and the technical dudes set up the line up from your Band you could scream cause you are so happy that you see them so soon my heart and my pulse are unbelievale high i have so much adrenaline in me, and then the music from your band start to begin and you could freak out directly just to listen some tunes gaves me so much that nothing else ever can.

Then you see them “your Band/ Your Idol” and in that little moment ou cant really belive that this is really happen right now, you see them just a few meter infront of you, they start singing that songs that helped you alot in the past, you can sing every single word with them, this feeling is unbelievable, i cant really find words for this.

You party in this time so much with your friends and the people there as it wouldnt gave a new day. To be there where you really belongs to makes everything so special.

Sadly you know that after 1,5 hour everything is done the Band with they concert finished their set list and your sad cause now its done the day where you waited for soo long end then, some people start crying and some people just smilig the whole time, when the bad leave the stage everyone is running to the merch temp where you can buy a memorie of the night and took some picture while and after their show.

To leave the hall makes me always sad its really bittersweet.

You are thankful for having a amazing night like this one, but at the other site you are extremly sad cause its over and for some bands you need to wait a year sometimes more before you gonna see them back :(.

But the memories will always a important part and you have them forever. The most wonderfull thing at concert is the fact to meet so many diffrent people from whole germany and somtimes from other countrys too. It unbelievable from where all the fans arrive just to see their/your Favorit Bands.

Some people standing after their concert outside and wait to see maybe the band again and to make some photos and talk a bit some band do this and take some time to spent a bit time with their fans. To take a picture with your Band or just with one of your Favorit members can make you extremly happy :).

So what do you think about concerts and going to some ?

A Band Love that Save you and also can kill/Destroy you ..


In the whole world are Fans of some Bands who love to meet their “Idols” just to hug them to talk with them a little bit, tol isten to the music of them, almost everyone has this Band in his own life, which means for themself the most,and help them so much at time where other did had the chance to.

They just help some people all over the world just with the music of them with this about what they are singing about, Fans feeling at this time understood, not alone anymore, when thy listen to their music they feel all connected to the Band. Some of them have just One Band who they listen to and feel directly happy some others have a few Band, but it doesnt matter how many Love Band do you have, when they help you at times where you need someone its always good. When you dont wanna talk to anyone just listen to everysingle word what they singing.

A Love to an Special Band also conneted strangers to friends, its unbelievable how a Band Love can change your life, how much people you meet just because you love a special Band. Nothing is better to meet people who love the same like you, and some o them going through the same shit like you.

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over ” Simple Plan – Welcome to my life

Its defently the postive site of loving a band, but sadly theres also a really negative site of loving a band, a site that can kill you or destroy you.

Im Talking about all the haters in the world, these people who start bullying you, just because you love a band, i mean when these other the band dont like then dont start hating or bully some others just because about the fact they love these Band, i mean you also dont want that someone say something really bad about your Band !

Unfortunately there are these haters in th world, they are everyhwere in the world and for every single Band they gave haters.

” On and on and on you’re all I needed
Oh you know, you know it’s all we’ve got
Know I’ll be there just to stop the bleeding
Know you’ll be there waiting for the drought ”             –  The Blackout – You´re not alone

For about a couple Weeks Alex Gaskarth (All Time low) post in twitter that he dont like the new One direction song, it was just his opinion, and in less then 5 min he recived a lot of hating message that the “Direction fans” gonna kill him, it gave really sites about kill alex gaskarth. I mean Some people are to much in these Band love and forget at this time what they are saying it was just his opinion.

And i think that everyone should have his own opinion about a Band who he love and not, its a free life that we all live so please Fans doesnt matter a Fan of Who please calm a little bit down.

And then theres other fans who start talking bullshit about others just about they are more closer to an Band Like they are, ans they hate these fact and thats why they starting romour, ridicioulus rumours. Please Stop talking bullshit people we all love the same and its kinda annoying and rumours can kill someone cause its like bullying, recived messages they was not nice and i almost killed myself about messages like this.

So please Fans We all Love the same Band it doesnt care which Band, we wanna spent an awesome time with them and with the other bands so stop bully stop talking bullshit and anything else just enjoy the short time that we all have with our Band.

xx Sarah


What does music means to you and how important is she for you ?

Hello Readers,

For me is music not just something that what im listen to, for me has the music a really important part in my life and no im not a star/singer or anything else im just a normal girl what loves music. 🙂

What does music means to you. ? 

For me music means a lot, she helps me at time where no one else was really there for me, or could help me. For me the music gave me something to believe in at the time while im listen to it. I can choose a special song at a special mood that ive had ( sad, happy ) it doesnt care witch mood, its just something that helps me and thats why she means a lot to me. I listen everyday to some special songs. While im being in the train, at home , or meeting friends , shes a important part of me.

What does she gives you while you listen to them . ?

I cant really describe what actually music gives me at the time while im listen to them, i just can say that music give me something that not everyone can give me, a feeling of getting understood, a feeling of carying just a feeling to be not alone. The Music is a magic thing cause its connection people all over the world, people start to find they new Best friends, they new sister mostly on concerts. The Music gave me so much in my life, i woudnt know where i am when im not having the music always by me side, through some Bands ( Simple Plan, Sonns of Midnight ect ….) i found so many Friends/Sisters in my life and i never wanna miss them in my life.

Music is something magical, it helps me a lot at time where i didnt saw any reason to stay strong for something or believe in something. The music is a big reason of who i am now. Me without music no way. Music is really Important for me, to me its a really nightmare to know that i need to spent some days without music, i think some of you maybe feel like the same. Still while im writing this here down im listening to music at the moment ( Sons of Midnight – Saint and Sinners ). Music is such a wonderfull thing what excist.

The Music can touch people in they soul, what would be a Wedding without the melody at the beginning, what would we do without the heartbreaking music in sad movies, or just the fact to be at night with your hubby in bed and listen to some slow songs ?

The Music is everywhere in the world … at the tv, in the cinema, at the train, in shopping malls its everywhere and for every Situation theres gave a special music type for

… For some Party times songs from

  — Pitbull, Usher, Nicky Minaj ,Rihanna, David Guetta

… For some romantic times songs from

— Withney Houston, Lady Antebellum, Sinead o Connor, Elvis Presley

Thats just a few ideas, theres so many more situations where the music is a really important part where you need the music to make something big amazing. The music gives the final point at something.

For a long while i always played by myself Guitar, i dont know why but i stopped for about 4/5 years i think, everyone has his own reason an side why the music is so important for themself.

At least the music saved my life in so many ways, not just the fact that i found trough these a Band who i love since 10 years and a Band i already know them since 1 year but they helped me so much and through these boys i found the girls that i truly love and im thankful that i have these wonderfull people in my life, when the music wouldnt excist i never meet these wonderfull people and this would be heartbreaking.

A Person from the Band gave me so much, he maybe doesnt know how much but he did and im always thankful for this and to remind me what a promise i gave him i ink a heart that he sign at my wrist i see it everysinge day and this reminds me there are people that i love and miss at the same time. Im thankful for the music and the chance that ive found these people.

What is your Favorit song or yout Favorit Band ?

Well as i said 2 of my Favorit Bands are and always will Sons of Midnight and Simple Plan, there gave me so much, what no one else ever could. Well im also listen a lot to

—  Green day, All time low, Blink182, Sum41, The Killers, Papa Roach, Linkin Park, Three days Grace, Greenfrog Feet, Good Charlotte, Queen, Kings of Leon, Billy Talent, Ashlee Simpson, Avril Lavigne, Grace Sewell, The Veronicas, P!nk, Die Ärzte , The Bloodhound gang, Rihanna and Rita ora and many more  .. .. ..

As you can see i hear a lot of music and also a good mix of some tunes, i dont really have a special type of music what i hear, sometimes i also hear some tunes of Britney, Justin or One Direction i think it doesnt care what other people thinking about what youve been listen to it, when you love the music its totally okay 🙂

The Question about a Favorit song is a really hard one  …. I mean i dont really have this one song thats my Favorit i have actually a few  .. like

— This Song Saved my life, Perfect, Untitled, Everytime, Take my Hand (Simple Plan), Stand up for love, Saint and Sinners, Superman, Kill the Dj (Sons of Midnight), Diamonds (Rihanna), Numb, In the end, Crawling, One step closer, Papercut (Linkin Park) Scars, sometimes, Blood, Not Listening (Papa Roach).

Thats also just a few but this songs i listen to a lot 🙂 Mostly a few of them everyday.

As you can see im listen to songs and music a lot mostly every free second of my life 🙂

What does music means you ? What is your Fave ? Let me know what you think about music write me here in

– WordPress, just leave a comment here under that post  🙂

– Twitter – www.Twitter.com/Sarahcologne

Im excited 🙂

xxx Sarah